[id:$01265091] [ar:eminem] [ti:Going Through Changes] [by:] [hash:53d0caf4d789a6f84bf2f2238ac28750] [al:] [sign:] [total:296000] [offset:0] [00:00.59]Going Through Changes - Eminem [00:05.99]I'm going through changes [00:13.37]I'm going through changes [00:20.96]Lately I really feel like [00:22.26]I'm rolling for delph like Philly [00:24.14]I feel like I'm losing control of myself [00:26.27]I sincerely [00:26.82]I apologize if all that I sound like [00:29.44]Is I'm complaining [00:30.32]But life keeps on complicating [00:31.94]An' I'm debating [00:33.21]On leaving this world this evening [00:35.01]Even my girls [00:35.95]Can see I'm grievin' I try and hide it [00:38.07]But I can't [00:38.40]Why do I act like I'm all high and mighty [00:40.78]When inside I'm dying [00:41.59]I am finally realizing I need help [00:43.52]I can't do it by myself too weak [00:46.10]2 weeks I've been having ups and downs [00:48.09]Going through peaks and valleys [00:49.22]Dilly dallying [00:49.96]Around with the idea [00:51.23]Of ending the **** right here [00:53.48]I'm hatin' my reflection [00:54.79]I walk around the house tryin' to fight mirrors [00:57.35]I can't stand what I look like yeah [00:59.41]I look fat but what do I care [01:01.65]I give a f**k only thing I fear is Hailie [01:03.64]I'm afraid if I close my eyes I might see her [01:06.04]**** [01:06.47]I'm going through changes [01:14.96]I'm going through changes [01:22.28]I lock myself in the bedroom [01:23.39]Bathroom nappin' at noon [01:24.71]Yeah dad's in a bad mood [01:26.46]He's always snappin' at you [01:27.76]Marshall what happened at you [01:29.20]You can't stop with these pills [01:30.64]And you've fallen off with your skills [01:32.04]And your own fans are laughin' at you [01:33.60]It become a problem [01:34.34]You're too ***** to tackle get up [01:35.65]Be a man stand [01:36.80]A real man woulda had this **** handled [01:38.73]Know you just had your heart [01:40.54]Ripped out and crushed [01:41.44]They say Proof just flipped out [01:42.94]Homie just swift out and bust [01:44.44]Nah it ain't like Doody to do that [01:46.71]He wouldn't f**kin' shoot at [01:48.02]No-body he fights first [01:49.32]But dwellin' on it only [01:50.94]Makes the night worse [01:51.73]Now I'm poppin Vic's [01:52.54]Perks and Methadone pills [01:53.85]Yeah Em tight verse you killed it [01:56.55]f**kin' drug dealers hang [01:57.55]Around me like "yes man" [01:59.10]And they gon' do whatever I says when [02:00.98]I says it [02:01.99]It's in their best interest to [02:03.55]Protect their inves**ent [02:04.24]And I just lost my f**kin' best friend [02:06.55]So f**k it I guess then [02:08.04]I'm going through changes [02:15.72]Don't know what I'm going through [02:18.27]But I just keep on going through changes [02:23.91]My friends just can't understand this new me [02:25.59]That's understandable man [02:26.28]But just think how bananas you'd be [02:28.24]You'd be an animal too [02:29.43]If you were trapped in this fame [02:31.05]And caged in it like a zoo [02:32.69]And everybody's lookin' at you [02:33.94]What you want me to do [02:35.37]I'm startin' to live like a recluse [02:36.90]And the truth is [02:38.15]Fame startin' to give me an excuse [02:40.01]To be at a all time low [02:41.78]I sit alone in my home theatre [02:43.33]Watchin' the same damn DVD [02:44.52]Of the first tour the last tour [02:47.55]He was still alive [02:48.42]And it hurt sore fast forward sleepin' [02:50.42]Pills'll make me feel alright [02:51.88]And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night [02:54.50]I just take a couple more [02:55.87]Yeah you're motherf**kin' right [02:57.02]I ain't slowin' down for no one [02:58.94]I am almost homeward bound [02:59.94]Almost in a coma yeah homie come on [03:02.19]Don't look now [03:02.93]Daddy don't you die on me daddy [03:04.43]Better hold your ground [03:05.49]f**k don't I know the sound of that voice [03:07.93]Yeah baby hold me down [03:09.24]I'm going through changes [03:17.40]I'm going through changes [03:25.34]Wake up in the hospital full of tubes [03:27.51]Plus somehow I'm pullin' through [03:28.71]Swear when I come back [03:29.83]I'm a be bulletproof [03:30.52]I'm a do it just for Proof [03:32.14]I think I should state a few [03:33.53]Facts cause I may not get [03:34.91]A chance again to say the truth [03:36.30]**** it just hit me that what [03:37.75]If I would notta made it through [03:39.12]I think about the things [03:40.18]I would never got to say to you [03:41.92]I'd never get to make it right [03:43.44]So here's what I came to do [03:44.75]Hailie this one is for you [03:45.94]Whitney and Alaina too [03:46.93]I still love your mother [03:48.36]That'll never change [03:49.24]Think about her every day [03:50.69]We just could never get it together [03:52.25]Hey wish there was a better way [03:54.47]For me to say it [03:55.53]But I swear on everything [03:56.46]I'd do anything for her on anyday [03:57.91]There are just too many things [03:59.85]To explain when it rains [04:01.41]Guess it pours yes it does [04:02.82]Wish there wasn't any pain [04:04.13]But I can't pretend there ain't [04:05.43]I ain't placin' any blame [04:06.99]I ain't pointin' fingers [04:08.19]Heaven knows there never been a saint [04:09.82]I know it just feels like [04:11.13]We just pissed away our history [04:12.38]But just today [04:13.16]I looked at your picture [04:14.22]Almost hate to say [04:15.21]I miss you self consciously [04:16.21]Wish it didn't end this way [04:17.98]But I just had to get away [04:19.48]Don't know why [04:20.52]I don't know what else to say I guess [04:22.52]I'm going through changes [04:30.14]I'm going through changes