[ti:I Wonder] [ar:Gowe] [al:In Ya Mellow Tone 6] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]I Wonder - Gowe [00:40.56]Her mind was confused with a plus at the tip of the tube [00:43.57]Sick as she threw up with a cup take a sip of abuse [00:46.13]So she gets nervous cause her man left her [00:49.33]After the sex and he jets she thought that he loved her [00:51.95]You see shes 18 and shes a bit conscious [00:54.89]About her dress and the reflection of her own image [00:57.75]Timid in speech shes limited given a week [01:00.59]With her tummy blowing up so that people can see [01:03.34]But she decides to keep it said no to abortion [01:06.19]The feet kicks in her stomach comes without a warning [01:09.09]She feels the pain though cause her parents cry [01:11.91]And the shame eats her alive when she closed her eyes [01:14.85]Then the day comes she gives birth to a son [01:17.67]Kim sung hoon soon she holds and kisses her love [01:20.50]Wishing it never ended taking a mental picture [01:23.47]Hoping through the tears that her son would have a better future [01:26.07]I wonder if there's a smile on your face [01:31.08]Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace [01:36.82]I never could thank you enough for holding on [01:42.79]Dear mama mama mama forever I'll hold you in my heart [01:49.21]So she wonders what happened to her son next [01:51.61]Is there clothes on his back food on his plate whats the context [01:54.22]The recollection of the day replays in her mindset [01:57.35]And the ways she would try but just never could forget [02:00.54]Well he's okay and he resides in the states [02:02.95]A needle in space in which rain makes it a beautiful place [02:05.75]Embraced by the culture and he's loved by all the members [02:09.11]Until he turns 18 and his world get flipped [02:11.55]He hears that his mom is not actually his and that complications [02:15.19]Prevented her from having any kids and his real mom [02:18.13]Is actually Korean and she had to give him up for adoption [02:21.33]Cause she was young and was a student [02:23.01]Lost and was confused and wrestling in the moment [02:25.74]Am I Chinese or Korean am I destined in this union [02:28.62]And if I am what's the purpose I jot it in my verses [02:31.47]So I replay it in my mind as I think about you [02:34.27]I wonder if there's a smile on your face [02:39.62]Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace [02:45.38]I never could thank you enough for holding on [02:51.35]Dear mama mama mama forever I'll hold you in my heart [02:57.88]If I could write a letter and know that you would read it [03:00.50]I would tell you that I never once in my heart felt hatred [03:03.39]Reinstated I would play a song and dance with you [03:06.19]Hold your hand as I thank the lord for creating you [03:09.03]As strong as you are cause in my mind I can't fathom [03:11.82]The pain and the guilt when all you heard was their gossip [03:14.75]And still you stuck through it when they called you foolish [03:17.64]And with this gift that I possess your probably loved music [03:20.61]I hope you're doing well I hope some day you'll see this [03:23.55]I hope I mean I really hope that you know Jesus on a deeper level [03:27.58]Seeking just to know him better I hope in perfect timing we can [03:30.57]See the reason clearer I hope you're smiling now [03:33.29]I hope I cross your mind I hope you never second guess [03:36.24]If what you did was right cause I'm so proud of you [03:38.88]I love and admire you [03:40.22]So after all these years this is my way of telling you [03:42.88]I wonder if there's a smile on your face [03:48.05]Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace [03:53.85]I never could thank you enough for holding on [03:59.91]Dear mama mama mama forever I'll hold you in my heart [04:06.52]I wonder if there's a smile on your face [04:10.98]Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace [04:16.70]I never could thank you enough for holding on [04:22.70]Dear mama mama mama forever